subject: first entry
time: 9:39 am

it should appear that this is my absolute first entry, and that i should make it... special somehow or other.

but this is not my first diaryland diary, and so i don't think it's any more "special" than the other first entries i've done.

well, anyways. that was special enough.


subject: hilary duff music video - "wake up"
time: 9:44 am

one interesting thing i've noticed about fashion and physical appearance is that by simply changing the style or color of your hair, choosing a new outfit and putting on different shades of make-up you can gain more respect, get into a "clique" at your school, get a "label", etc. quite silly, nay? this idea really got to me last night while i was flipping the channels, searching for tnt (into the west was on last night, as well as tuck everlasting, a movie i've always wanted to see but haven't got around to renting. it's pretty difficult, i've learned, to try and watch two movies at the same time), when i stopped because i saw hilary duff's face. so i stopped to sneer and scoff at her music video, "wake up".

the lyrics were a bit messed up, but that's not my point here. as i stopped to take in her appearance, thinking to myself in a grumbling voice, "she's such a poser," i noticed the sudden change in her attire as the scene changed to a limo. she was dressed up like a true punk and laughing with these other two girls.

no, really!

the scene changed again and her garb looked like how she had dressed in the beginning of the music video, but she was still in the limo, and with different friends. and then (much to my horror), she had her hair dyed black, cut short and straightened (although it was probably a wig), and it scared me how much she looked like this girl at my school, save for the curl at the end of her hair and her clothing, which was a bit scary ("scary" as in extremely, painfully ugly).

but the first outfit change was the one that scared me the most.

we could be living with a world of posers and not even know it. i mean, hilary duff is a poser (and yes, i'll stand by that fact forevermore!), but by simply changing her outfit she looked like a punk. but she's not, because if she were she wouldn't be singing pop for 8- to 10-year-olds.

-twitches-


subject: coldplay concert
time: 10:15 am

coldplay is coming to the white river ampitheatre in seattle! and (hopefully) i'm going to be there!! mother promised she'd buy tickets... but that was two days ago... but i'll get those tickets no matter what. it's been my dream since i became a coldplay fan to see chris martin in person some day. and now's my chance! i am going to take however many pictures i can of him up on stage, plaster them to my bedroom walls next to all of the other pictures i have of him (although they weren't taken by me), and stare at them for two hours each day. -swoons- chris martin is so dreamy...


subject: self-dedication
time: 10:25 am

i know i've been putting my self-dedication off for decades, but i've finally decided i am doing it next full moon. on the 19th of august i will officially be a solitary wiccan who follows the dianic traditions! i nearly have everything i need, save some sweet-smelling incense, a candle snuffer and some matches. but i'm getting those tomorrow, and then i will be prepared!

also: mother and i are taking a little trip to the wilderness (look below), and i am hoping that i can convince my mom for us to go on the night of a full moon, so i may do my self dedication in the center of Nature, because right now it looks like i'm going to be doing it in my bedroom. not the most pleasant place to do it, but it's not like i can just go outside at midnight when mother has fallen asleep with an armful of candles and matches and look nonchalant about it. heh.


subject: mini-vacation
time: 10:32 am

so, as stated above, mother and i are going on a summer mini-vacation, along with barbro and lydia. it's going to be at a spa resort thing in a forest where you can get massages, spa days and what have you.

i'm hoping i can change the dates mother has chosen for us to go for reasons previously stated.


subject: make-over
time: 10:36 am

mother and i went out and bought a hair straightener and some black hair dye, so i can see what it looks like on my hair. it's been my dream ever since i was little to have long, shiny black hair... that was straight. i'm not saying i hate my shirley-temple curls, but sometimes they can just be so annoying! like on this backpacking trip i went on the other week... we didn't take showers for 9 days (well, duh, we were in the middle of the wilderness), and after only one day of not washing my hair, i couldn't even brush through it. of course, i was the only one with curly hair, so everyone else was able to brush their perfect straight hair. but they were also the ones who were complaining about how many knots their hair has, and how difficult it is to brush through it after five days, and...

woah, getting way off the subject there. so anyways, i asked mother if i could straighten my hair today yesterday, but she either didn't hear me or was talking to herself, for i asked about five times, so i'm simply waiting for her to come back from staples with some ink cartridges so i can take a shower, wash my hair, blow-dry it (which she can help me with since i've never done it before), and straighten my hair (which she may also help me with for the exact same reason). oh, goodness, i'm so excited! i've never actually seen my hair straightened or dyed black, save for one strand that my hair dresser straightened a long time ago when i was talking to her about how i've always wished my hair was straight, but that didn't give me a very good idea about how it would look if my whole head of hair was straightened, and i'm so excited to find out how it would truly look! i will only be able to straighten my hair once a month, or my curls will get ruined and fry, but i can dye my hair as often as i want. my mum'll probably only allow me to use temporary dye, but if i find a color that even she likes and agrees would look nice in my hair, maybe, just maybe...

mmm. black curls. i can only just imagine what they're gonna' look like.

but i have more to write on the subject of make-overs.

mother said i'm allowed to start wearing make-up, and i've put some thought into it, and i'm thinking i might want to get contacts so i can wear eye make-up, if i find any i really like, because, quite frankly, i'd only want to wear eye make-up if i could wear any make-up at all. when mother and i were at the drug store buying soap (i ran out), she was looking at eye liner for me and said that brown would look really nice on me. i grumbled and she got a bit annoyed, pointing at the other colors and saying, "red wouldn't look very nice on you, there's gray but it looks more green, and there's black, but that's not very attractive..." but i've wanted black eye liner forever! i wonder if there's a way i could go into the drug store and buy the eye liner without her even realizing, and her somewhere else doing something else...?

i'm too sneaky for my own good.